this may not be an angsty blog after all

搬家lo!

2010-02-06T22:22:00.001+08:00

moved to http://mac91.tumblr.com

I am a copycat :D

Insecurities

2010-01-28T19:41:00.004+08:00

So the 3 weeks are finally up and my cast has been removed, replaced with a splint. My fears proved to be justified when I saw what has become of my arm, muscle gone and all. It still hurts to straighten my arm because my muscles have been inactive for 3 weeks plus and the elbow joint is probably stiff as well. Thankfully I am now a little more able to write.

The first month of 2010 has been such a strange one. Although I've been mostly inactive and bumming around at home, certain aspects of my life have changed considerably. But recently I've been facing more insecurity again, and my broken wrist has not helped at all.

Anyway it's dinner time. Take care peeps.

reminiscence

2010-01-10T00:57:00.003+08:00

I spent a good part of the last hour reading my posts from 2007. I was such a funny blogger oh my goodness! Lame, but entertaining no doubt. I mean seriously, my posts were picture-ful and stuff. Ok I shall try to regain my awesome blogging skills. I bet Nicole had a big part in it. All her fault la. Zz.

2010

2010-01-01T11:30:00.002+08:00

So the new year has arrived! happy new year! How time flies, jc life is already over. Well I already have 1 new experience in the new year, having fractured my wrist. This happened while playing basketball on the 30th of December, and now i am typing with my left hand and right middle finger. Follow up appointment with the doctor is on the 7th of Jan.

The wrist kinda disrupts a lot of my plans, things that I had already spent a long time preparing myself for. And now I have a new anxiety, not knowing what is going to happen. In that last sentence, I think i used my left shift key for the first time in my life.

For example, I was quite set on enlisting in Feb, ORD-ing in December 2011 in time for christmas and the holiday season. That doesn't seem too likely now. I was even prepared to be garang and try to go to OCS. That may still happen if my enlistment simply gets pushed back. Other nuances include losing muscle mass due to the cast, and I can't exactly gym much with a fractured wrist either. I also can't drum nor play fast computer games and such. But I believe that God has a purpose in everything, and even if nothing good comes out of this I will definitely learn to appreciate having a normal functional limb, something that many people around the world don't have. And guys, treasure your baths. Because when you get a cast showering is such a hassle.

With a new year comes new pressures, new goals, new relationships. I'd be lying if I said that at this point I wasn't interested in relationships. Some people know my predicament. It's something I never quite felt before, in a protective sense, yet one that is selfish. Just the thought of there being someone else, worse yet in a physical relationship, makes me sick inside. The thought torments me, and if it were to happen I'm quite confident I would be torn apart. And for this reason I feel helpless, powerless. I fear it so much but cannot bring myself to do anything about it because I choose to honour God first. Or rather I want to honour God first. Perhaps I shall have a chat with Matt. Mighty matt. How do you hold on but let go at the same time? Again, I'll just have to trust God to lead me where he knows is best. Matthew 6:33 - but seek first his kingdom and his righteousness and all these things will be given to you as well.

That said, friends, there is so much to look forward to this year. As we all go our different ways, be it army or uni or whatever, I hope we will all still stay close and not forget every year before that we've had.

ROAR

2009-11-26T22:28:00.002+08:00

And after a long long hiatus A levels are almost over. It's been an awesome journey and as I very much expected the 3 weeks passed extremely quickly. That was it guys! That short span of nonsense papers was what you spent the last 3 months stressing over. And now its over! YAY!

Spent Monday and Tuesday out watching movies, today was my first full day at home and it was really boring. Class party tmr at Liz's, should be very fun.

Much has happened

2009-10-18T21:35:00.003+08:00

Well this post is probably going to be a very long one. Probably. Much has happened since I last posted, the highlights of which include Yiling and Gail joining the aunty club, WeiXian earning a right to be in the museum of natural history, and me finally graduating from 12 years of ACS.

My prelim results after moderation ended up as

A for Bio
A for Chem
A for Math
B for General Paper
D for Econs

And F for spelling.

I shall now proceed to reflect on my 2 years in JC, particularly this year. First of all, I'm really really thankful for the class of SC1 that I was/am so privileged to be a part of. I can't imagine my JC life in any other class, and all the experiences, good and bad will be remembered dearly till my mind requires the space for other things. I can't (ok I actually can) believe that our (almost) 2 years has passed so quickly. In my opinion JC2 was really the nicer half of JC altogether. It may have to do with the lack of CCA since July, or the fixed class venue which is also so awesome (I LUBX YOUZ F4.1), but I think that it's probably just how our class identity and personality had developed after a year.

I think we're really really fortunate to be blessed with facebook and the like, which make storing photographic memories so easy. Generations of students in the past graduated and probably only had at the most one album of photos to remember each other by, photos that would fade over time. We, on the other hand, have the almighty facebook which knows no limitations for everyone knows that the internet is infallible (note sarcasm). Yes, I will one day look back at these photos and wonder to myself "My, how slim I was back then", and proceed to pat my tummy that would have grown over years of (hopefully) joyous marriage. Future generations of sconers will also look at our class photos and envy that our class was blessed with the awesome Men of Scone and the rest of the beautiful ladies. They will laugh and gape at youthful photos of seasoned prime minister Amanda Ang.

Honestly, SC1 would not have been the same if not for each and every one's personality and character. Zoe's "maniacal" laugher (quoting Grace), Lydia's weird and humorous antics, Amanda choo's cacophonous/beautiful singing and exclamations of BOMBOM好CUTEAH, Joelle's liposuction thing, Alon's pinoyness, Fern's unusual knowledge and liking of songs from 1970-1995, Ian Yang's hotness, Wei's retarded jokes, Amanda Ang's messages to econs mdm, the collective choir girls' singing, Chin's taitainess, Yi Ling's public transport is bad rule, Dora(speaks for itself), Jiayi's weird lesbian-ness, Peiyan's china music, Li Lin's Shrek zoo, Liz's lack of exercise, Sandra's bimboness, Mae's artsy-fartsy-is-so-frikin-coolness, Anne's really really deep speeches and ginseng thing. I can't think of anything strange about Chye and Jane, which makes them the most normal I suppose. Feel free to add to the list.

A year ago, I had probably just gotten back from CCAAB. While many things have changed since then, I don't in any way regret my decisions. Well ok I do some, but overall no. At CCAAB dinner last year, I wrote 10 things that I would have accomplished by October-something-2009. Of these 10, 2 had to do with basketball. Of the remaining 8, I am fairly proud that I have more or less accomplished 6. These include passing chinese :D

Ok I feel like doing other things now, so good luck to all my hao pen you who are studying hard for A levels, and remember that this is but a small fragment of the line that will be our life. While it may affect our future largely, I'm quite certain that years down the road we will all look back and laugh at how insignificant A's were, whether our results are good or bad. The important thing is that we formed strong friendships that will hopefully last a lifetime, and that is something that we can be happy about.

Today

2009-09-15T22:35:00.003+08:00

So today was totally awesome! Friends baked me a super nice fattening rich oreo-cheesecake that I think everyone enjoyed a lot. Had dinner at Holland V and yup just a perfect birthday today! And no cake in face!

So thanks to everyone who wished me and made my 18th birthday such a special one

The day of the Bird Park

2009-09-14T22:26:00.002+08:00

Today I. Did not go to the bird park. But I watched the Nightmare before Christmas!

Ok birthday shoutout. Happy birthday Tai Li Lin! May you continue to be retarded despite your newfound auntyness.

I realised this year I did not do a wish list heehee. Nor make a big thank you list. Well it shall come soon I suppose, some time.

BIrthday meal #2

2009-09-13T15:03:00.001+08:00

Just came back from lunch with family at Hard Rock Cafe. I had to go on stage stand on a chair and announce that it was my birthday and ask everyone to sing me a song hahaha but whatever I get free ice cream! And the worst part is, after all that eating, I'm not even back to my normal weight before I moved. Grrr stupid moving.

Got new speakers and am about to have my first dota game on my com since sec 3 with functional proper speakers! More later.

Introducing Sean

2009-09-12T23:54:00.002+08:00

Hey so here's a clip of Sean's playing. Do check it out, comment and yes get us popularity! In the process of cleaning up and uploading audio recordings of his playing. All casual stuff. Enjoy!

COM BACK UP

2009-09-11T20:44:00.001+08:00

YES COM BACK UP AND I AM VERY HAPPY IT IS BETTER THAN EVER BEFORE. THANK YOU ANDREW YONG GREATEST COM PERSON IN THE WORLD

MOVING POST #1

2009-09-07T14:01:00.000+08:00

I HAVE MOVED. Ok so far, it's been so so only, and rather disappointing. Soundproof room not very soundproof, my drums aren't up yet, my computer is spoilt. Thankfully internet is now up so I can use laptop. Oscar is being very annoying and barking like a little girl with a loud and low voice...Hope he learns to keep quiet and not bark unnecessarily.

On Saturday exit 9 played for ASEAN dance, and I must say the audience was extremely enthusiastic and it was a great experience. Got to meet a few people as well. Anyway, after playing we more or less spent the rest of the night stoned next to a grand piano with starbucks in hand and Sean on the piano. He is now the best pianist/keyboardist I know, and Mr Wee Yee Joon Darren has been dethroned. Poor quality recordings and video will be up when my computer is fixed.

SO study hard people, and hopefully I'll be back to my 24/7 online-ness in a while once we get everything in the house settled. And sorry to my new neighbours for the noise and irritation you shall soon accept as part of your daily lives. Kindly do not complain, or I will have to err. Cry

MOVING and STUFF

2009-09-03T21:37:00.000+08:00

Today I finally got my letter from CMPB. Thank goodness, cos two more days and I wouldn't get it because it'd be addressed to my old house. The letter was dated 27 July, I bet some clerk (slacker) like forgot to send it or something until now. Anyway, I'm PES BL1. Guess I'm not that screwed up after all.

Prelims were pretty good, sorry to those who don't share my sentiments but fear not it's only prelims and you still have time to study for A's! For those who are happy with how it went good job and keep working hard.

self-worth

2009-08-29T09:40:00.002+08:00

Prelims over woohoo. As I got down to packing my stuff (since I'm moving), I realised a rather astonishing thing. It was funny how I could throw away so many things that occupied my room and space for so long. Things that I used to hold on to for whatever reasons I could now chuck away like thrash, surprised at myself for keeping them so long. By the way my keyboard feels so awesome I cleaned it yesterday and now it feels brand new and awesome. Anyway, I think it's kinda like a self-worth thing. At that point in my life, recent projects and stuff seemed so big and significant to me, whereas now I have accomplished bigger projects and so those old ones no longer have any worth. The reason why we (or maybe just me) keep stuff is because it defines us to a certain extent, it provides material evidence that we participated in the game of life. As we age however we gain new experiences and new achievements. That's not to say that our old stuff becomes unimportant, I believe deep down everything will hold some extent of sentimental or other value. But it's like a maxwell-boltzmann distribution curve. When we have physical quotas because of physical space and constraint we create a cut off point, an activation energy of sorts. And only things that have value above the cut off can stay.

If you haven't realised by now that's a whole load of bull and common sense but yeah I'm just saying it's actually something I wouldn't have thought of otherwise.

End of week 1

2009-08-22T21:04:00.000+08:00

So prelims this week. Went ok I guess, some stuff could have been better, but then again it always can can't it? Using blogger on chrome... and like it doesn't really load the page properly so I don't know if it's chrome or what but anyway the page I am currently typing on looks very ... bare. Upcoming week of prelims should be much less stressful for everyone, hope everybody does well and yup wish everyone the best of luck.

This is kinda a wasted post, because there are things I may want to say but wouldn't say on the blog. So I shall find something else to talk about. Like oscar. Oscar, my dog, is a very nice dog and he's very well behaved and now drools much less than before and he is a very nice dog. New flat will be kinda small for his fat ass though... My fat (actually not really but don't tell him, I want him to think I think he's fat so he'll exercise more) and lovable dog shall come and pollute the new flat teehee.

Step 2 of exit 9's road to success with yours truly as a part of it soon to come.

Word of advice. When using the school computers and like you start getting someone taking control of the com and like typing extremely weird, kid-sounding messages in the address bar, such as "i can see you and your buddy yapping" or "just stop playing and you and I are cool", you actually should stop playing whatever retarded game it is. Because surprise surprise like the wizard of Oz is just some frail old man, this messed up dude is some chinese gangster punk who gives you face but you spit in his face. Oh darn it, don't waste your saliva.

I like my classmates :) and oscar.

Revelations of the hat in the hat.

2009-08-03T21:41:00.003+08:00

I bought my new (or rather old) Zildjian New Beat Hi hats on Saturday! The weekend was pretty hectic and I was involved in a lot of drumming for church and chapel this morning, which went pretty well I think. Yesterday went out with Tai Choo Choo to watch Chow Pei Pei and Zom Zom Li. Had a lot of fun, we had dinner at MOS burger. I'm really thankful for this group of people that God has blessed me with!

Lots of people around me have been getting sick lately, and by God's grace I'm still well! Yip-a-dee-doo-da. Get well soon people!!!

Ok I suppose I should talk about something important. But before do I CHALLENGE YOU to take the ALON CHALLENGE, which is to actually read this post and tell me what it's about. http://4l0n.wordpress.com/2009/08/02/beware-the-words-that-kinda-but-shouldnt-bind-the-haper-whorf-hypothesis-and-why-i-think-in-images-instead-of-words/
Do note that I did not get past the 3rd line. This challenge does not apply to KI-ers and especially to the filipino himself. Or H3 Physics Geeks, cos they're well... h3 physics geeks who have too much time on their hands and spend their days playing com and pei-ing com.

So my important topic of today shall be ............. HEEHEE I just thought of saying something to do with one of the Choo's but I shall not but I shall still say that I thought of saying this in order to create a shroud of mystery ooooooo. Ok err the topic shall be Physical Periodicity.

Physical periodicity is EXTREMELY IMPORTANT, and every chemistry student needs much help in physical periodicity. That is why you should attend Physical Periodicity Revision lectures, because they are very important. It's a shame that I felt a sudden urge to go to the toilet with all my bags once seeing that today's chem lecture was on physical periodicity. I would have benefited so much from attending the lecture. Hopefully tomorrow I won't get a sudden urge to go to the toilet for an hour. Let me tell you a bit about physical periodicity. Across a period in general, the atomic radius of the element decreases. This is because of increasing effective nuclear charge due to increasing number of protons in the nucleus while screening effect remains relatively constant as additional electrons are added to the same subshell! Amazing isn't it? Ionic radius decreases across the period too, but anions are bigger than cations because cations have one entire subshell less. The decrease is due to increasing effective nuclear charge as well because number of protons increases but number of electrons is the same for the ions.

I hope my post on physical periodicity was beneficial.

Sobs

2009-07-28T21:20:00.002+08:00

Man justin sent me this link. Seriously pure awesomeness. This my friends, is what marriage should be about. Love. Not only loving the person, but also loving the relationship. Hope these ppl have a great life together.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4-94JhLEiN0&feature=player_embedded

Happy birthday Amanda Choo Yen Yi!

voices in my head

2009-07-25T21:18:00.002+08:00

The voices. They're speaking out to me, calling me to do stuff. I know which one is the right one, but most often I don't follow it. The other voice is always speaking to me, beckoning me to fall into temptation. To fall into a trap. And I willingly listen. The other voice, calls out to me so loudly in my times of need, and I know that it is the one I should listen to. Yet I don't. But I know this now, and I will strive to follow the voice of truth.

Forgive me Lord.

Letting slip

2009-07-25T14:18:00.002+08:00

I slid into slumber, my thoughts drifting away into the darkness of the night. Then you struck. You struck me by surprise, caught me off guard. And without thinking I may have succumbed. I may have given up any last bit and residue in that single act of idiocracy. Now I fear. Fear that all I've fought for, all I've suppressed, all that I've taught myself has became all for naught. For what if you walk away, maybe deceived, maybe angry. Time seemed to just stop whenever I felt away, things just felt different and drab. And when I rose I looked back in time, to the days when things were so great. When I felt no insecurities. I looked back to all your words that left a smile on my face, the words that made me feel that for a rare time in my life I finally had someone who would always be there. These words had already faded, these times long gone, and I tried with every bit of strength to hold on, even if it was just a speck of what used to be.

All this I possibly wasted in seconds of stupidity.

I once believed that you were different. My only remaining hope is that I was right. I won't live with myself if in my own actions I took away the spark that kept me sane all this while.

Liz the bomb :) lubdub

2009-07-18T21:09:00.002+08:00

Now now before we jump to any conclusions from the title let me explain myself. That is the name that EliSabeth Ong saved herself under on my phone quite long ago and it has remained as such since. The reason for me bringing this up is well, the part about the lubdub. For yesterday I journeyed late to the MILITARY MEDICINE INSTITUTE (ZOMGGG LIGHTNING THUNDER SCARYYY) for my scheduled cardiology test. I got electrodes stuck to me and they made me like walk on a treadmill for 12 minutes, changing the speed and inclination of the treadmill every 3 minutes. The most annoying part was the blood pressure... you know how it kinda hurts when the thing inflates and squeezes your arm. Yeah once or twice is fine but when it happens practically every 30 seconds it gets annoying. And after my walk when I had to stone for 5 minutes while they probably monitor my heart rate after exercise the blood pressure thing like became even tighter. It left a mark from like the velcro or smth on my arm. Like this trail of red dots.

Anyway, after that I went to school (rather long after) to gym and then went to Plaza to watch Potter (0.5 blood prince) with Matt Dwee and Justin. This morning had to go to school pretty early for GP mock test. I went late and thus got the 2007 question paper which we had sort of gone through before in class while most of my classmates did the 08 paper. My question was "the view of the majority is always right" blabla. Essay was ... somewhat satisfactory. Can't say the same for the comprehension though. Then took 74 with Choo, Choo, Kuan and ... are you ready for this? You sure? Better make sure your heart is working well cos it's gonna be quite a shock. .... YILING. LIKE OMG YILING TOOK A BUS! So I was quite happy... if only everyday could be like this it would be really cool, going home with my classmates. Like so many people can take 74 (in this case jiayi and jane weren't headed home but still...) and out of this vast number of bukit timah bishan and ang mo kio dwellers like I only ever take bus with yammy.

Oh wells. Kay now I have to go hang myself for the third time to fulfil jiayi's request.

Whenever life takes a downturn, look towards the upturn

2009-07-15T22:52:00.002+08:00

Read title for opening statement. It seems that I'm finally growing up! I'm finally learning to let go and to just let God take his path. No more bad days and all, there's only good days and good days that become better days. Reading Alon's blog bout how the class sometimes dumps on Wei, I realised that we all have days when it seems we're alone, that we're being treated unfairly. But if we look closely enough we'll find that there are always friends and people out there who sincerely want to make our lives better. Thank God for these friends.

Random events in the past few days: Class photo taking (I think I don't look nice though :( ) Thats a close bracket next to a sad smiley by the way .... I really should study more, I've been making the effort but not being very productive.

Oh well. I'm so excited to see Sandra Jane and Jiayi's hair tomorrow. No seriously. I'm turning into a girl.

confessions part II

2009-07-12T18:00:00.002+08:00

Ok so I tried my luck playing with a song and trying to sync the audio. Used windows movie maker. When I did it it was ok, but upon publishing as a .wmv i think the video portion (which = my drumming ) got sped up a tiny bit. The start is absolutely disgusting because in the first place I was playing so horrible (I used the song as a warm up at 750am this morning) and then it gets sped up a tiny bit so it sounds wayway off. The later bits are a bit better I think. Oh well, everyone has to start somewhere.

drumming vids

2009-07-11T22:19:00.003+08:00

I RECORDED MY DRUMMING! They're quite nonsense and really horrible playing by me but whatever I don't care. Woots.

This is the only one that actually captures a bit of me and the drums. And probably the worst in terms of playing.

This one was taken yesterday. Camera was facing the ceiling though so ... sob. This one with my phone outside the drum shield on a music stand and hence the angle.

BREAKING NEWS

2009-07-11T00:15:00.001+08:00

BREAKING NEWS: I BROKE MY FIRST DRUM STICK EVER TODAY! (pun geddit??!!)

It was after band prac when we were jamming. After a lot of random soloing and stuff I attempted to play Hysteria by Muse with Paul Ooi on bass. Paul pro sia. And err. I broke my stick. Cos I kinda hit pretty hard :O

wednesday

2009-07-08T21:36:00.002+08:00

Today started off seeming to be a not very good day. Thankfully it picked up and more or less the day was good. Matt is still the man of the hour for he nursed me back to health like nurse Joy nurses Brock and pikachu back to health.

Have you ever ate like really cold ice cream together with say .... very very hot coffee? I don't think it's a nice feeling. Hot and cold, just doesn't go together. Which is way it is not nice to be getting hot and cold. I guess you could say it's better than cold all the time (assuming cold is bad), but it makes your senses go on a roller coaster.

MAN OF THE HOUR

2009-07-07T22:11:00.001+08:00

Matthaeus Lim is the man of the hour. Go matt.

I wonder

2009-07-04T21:48:00.002+08:00

How much are we influenced by our family, specifically our parents. I for one know that I am very much who I am because of who my dad is. What he's done as well as his personality, his beliefs, his likes and dislikes are all very much reflected in my character, or so I feel.

I believe that boys especially look up to their fathers a lot growing up. Their true role model in life is and should be their father. It is thus not a strange thing that I accept a lot of what he says without much questioning, more so then I would for anybody else.

One aspect of his personality is the need for companionship... I shan't elaborate. But anyway I too find myself being very in need of friends who really stick around like the whole time. Most people can kinda live with you know just being friends with everybody. I on the other hand, need certain people to stay a part of my everyday life. It's no wonder that when suddenly things seem to change, even a tiny bit, I start thinking way too much and getting a lot more worked up than I should.

Maybe it is as my mind thinks it is, maybe I am becoming a victim of the cut off again. But what if I'm wrong and I get worked up over nothing? That's what I'm choosing to believe. All I can do is to love as God has loved us and to do everything not for the eyes of man but for the eyes of God. At the end of the day then, can it be said that I have not tried my best? If it is meant to be, it will be.

thursday

2009-07-02T20:53:00.003+08:00

Today wasn't really a good day for me, honestly speaking. Been feeling really tired in school, probably not used to studying this much and also exerting myself physically. Today was just one of those days when ... I felt restless, I felt tired and I felt *******. Something I haven't felt for a long time thankfully, but I do know what contributed to it.

And yet as I walked away feeling kinda down, disappointed and slipping into a state of disregard, I heard one word. One distinct word amongst the noisy chatter of the rest of the world. One word that soothed me, made me forget everything else that had happened. The strangest thing is, any word would have done exactly that.

I'm getting myself into a whole deeper load of ****. It's probably not going to be worth it, but I don't care. I'm not getting left behind.

OH NOE!

2009-06-27T23:18:00.003+08:00

I'm getting drum stuff fever again ... GOOD DEALS that I find very hard to resist but would set me back at least $350...Assuming I can sell my current hats for bout close to 200 then it'd be $150 or so... probably $200. But I also need to get new earphones!! Just today my earphones officially died on me and now no matter how I twist the wire I don't get sound in the right ear.

Anyway for those who'd like to help me out with my drum dilemma... 13" Sabian HHX Manhattan Jazz Hi hats (I think I prefer the 14") and 14" Paiste Signature Reflector Dark Crisp (what a mouthful) Hi hats. Do check them out and tell me which you think sounds nicer for a versatile but more jazzy cymbal (JUST LIKE MY RIDE). Especially the music-y people. Err. www.paiste.com and www.sabian.com and search for em. PLEASE!!!

Then if any sound-savvy person out there reads my blog also please advise me what earphones to get, budget of around $150, preferably cheaper.

Twitter

2009-06-27T18:38:00.001+08:00

For some strange reason I decided to start twittering... Ok the reason was mainly to subscribe to other people (namely NBA players) twitters. But might as well make use of it. And I've decided to somewhat publicize my blog more.

back from chalet

2009-06-18T16:21:00.002+08:00

This week has been really good so far. On Monday just met Lester in the afternoon and in the evening we studied at KAP. I felt really demoralised cos I like didn't know a lot of stuff, even for my better subjects. I must thus be more disciplined and willing to study at home because I have all my notes and everything which would allow me to understand the topic better while doing the question.

On Tuesday headed to Clementi MRT in the morning to meet scone for class CIP (kudos to Wei for organising). We brought some intellectually-disabled people out to Sentosa for a day of fun! It was quite an experience, and my buddy was very independent and co-operative, and pimp. So basically we just ate at the beach and had some colouring time and then we proceeded to Merlion walk and just took some photos there. When Wei uploads the photos on facebook I'll put some of em here.

So CIP ended around 4 or so and I rushed home to pack for class chalet. Met jiayi sandra and michelle at queenstown MRT then we went to pasir ris and met ian yang and lydia and waited for fern. So checked in blablabla, peiyan came and we had pizza hut for the first night! Silly us didn't think of renting movies earlier like while we were at Pasir Ris MRT. Anyway activities for the night were mainly cards and a failed attempt at cluedo (we forgot the rules and how to play). Wei came later on and peiyan left so 8 of us stayed over the first night. Ms Lam thought that sunrise was at 430am and thus set her alarm at 430 (we changed it to 445). I couldn't really sleep well the first night so at 430 she asked me if want go see the sunrise and I just blindly followed her out the door before reminding her (informing rather) to her shock and horror that the sun rises at like what nearer to 7?

Thus we were locked out and had to call Chye to open the door. Then yang fern and lydia dunno did what like reading in the toilet and stuff but anyway they went out and the rest of us slept till 840 or so and had breakfast at macs. Then sadly yang lydia and chye had to go at like 10+, so jiayi me fern wei and sandra went bowling. It was fun. Jeremy sucks, k ah ma rocks. Like the guy in the next lane to us (jeremy) was this act pro guy who is srsly gonna break his back some day with his form and comes across as super loser and annoying. Meanwhile a few lanes away was this ah ma who was SUPER PRO (k ah ma). Yar. So then jiayi and fern left and alon came. Alon thought the chalet was inside wild wild wet and bought a $15.50 admission ticket (but managed to get refunded). That was really funny. We had lunch at white sands (shopping ctr at pasir ris mrt) and rented movies! Lunch at superdog which was SOOO not super. Spent the afternoon watching burn after reading (watched halfway, it sucked, both the movie and the dvd itself cos it stopped working) and then slumdog millionaire. Rui xian came like around 6, peiyan later on and we had dinner at subway.

I shall leave out the details after that for fear of sounding scandalous.

So yes chalet was fun fun fun and now I'm very sleepy. Wish more people could have come, stayover number on the first night was pretty much the max but wish more people could have come for the day and stuff. We shall have many more in the future!

the end of the CO journey

2009-06-15T08:39:00.002+08:00

And at last it's over! Firstly a big thank you to everyone who bothered coming down to support us. I can definitely live with the consequences of the decision I made a few months back, and I can safely say that I have enjoyed the experiences and friendships that I have made in this time in CO. I also want to say a special thank you to Mike and Lukas for being my chums and being a huge part of this interesting experience heh... And of course also my classmates chowpeiyan and ahchoo.

I'd like to blog more now but NBA FINALS WOOHOOOO. scone chalet tmr. hope ppl come

Day 2 (sort of)

2009-06-02T21:06:00.003+08:00

Progress so far: zilch. But I am about to attempt the bio IL and I SHALL MEET MY GOALS!!! Roar. Looking forward to class chalet very much. Today I swam in a futile attempt to tan more but alas the sun had gone down. CO is very blehhhhh. Awesome :)

Honestly though I just cant wait for CCA to be over with OMG SO MUCH FREE TIME! So class chalet's done, if anyone would like to suggest stuff we're gonna do and plan foodbringing etcetc please feel free to offer your help :D And Justin and I apparently have the responsibility of planning an IDEN outing as well. But what if our star member doesn't go? LWH is the bomb.

Ok my quicktime's done installing so I can now use LMS whoaaa.... Err. Go Kings. Get Rubio! Without trading Hawes or Thompson!

Edit: Alas I am too hardworking for the school and although I'm ready the slides and all aren't uploaded yet. -.-

and so at last it came

2009-05-29T23:40:00.002+08:00

The holidays are finally here!!! But firstly let me advertise CO concert on the 14th of June Sunday sometime in the evening tickets are priced at 12 bucks, free seating. Pls let me know if interested.

So Mid Years were rather enjoyable in the go home early and the two days before midyears slackness sense. I'm just glad they're over, they passed really quickly. Performance wise I'm quite satisfied with the effort I put in and how I found the papers as a check for how well I know my stuff. The days were spent with the guys and wei and jiayi and amanda choo and today some other sconers as well. We went to IKEA for lunch and then we watched night at the museum 2. Apparently it was reviewed badly but I'm not a movie critic and so any movie that I enjoy is worth it.

In the past few weeks main events have been glissando and rugby finals. Which I am too lazy to blog about. Which brings me on to my targets/goals/aims for the June Holidays!!!

1. QT regularly
2. Get un-band/exit9 stuff done and running
3. Start on my jazz book
4. Hope and pray the Kings draft Rubio with the #4 pick by some miracle/ trade up to draft him
5. My usual fitness goals that I never ever meet. Run twice a week and gym
6. And perhaps the most important for me as a student, study on average 1.5 hours a day including doing assignments

It's funny how things change. I have a feeling I've used this line before like in some post, maybe even more than once. Oh wells. But the past few days especially and the past few weeks its like something's different, not as it once was, and things are just so much better, life is so much better. Company.

I'm being really vague here intentionally. But I've thought about it so much before and now I'm thinking about it at an even greater level. I say I wanna ask God what to do but I know deep inside that I want God to approve because I want it. I want to finally get the experience, a lasting one of yar.

Limzy's house stayover with full gang in holidays plssssss

questionable event

2009-05-15T20:20:00.003+08:00

As much as I'm thankful that we're getting this awesome opportunity, I have to be honest here. I don't think the congregation who is giving their offering and tithing has the idea of booking palawan beach in mind when doing so. Honestly, the money can go to SO much more than just a day of fun and fellowship for a bunch of youths. I feel quite ashamed with the usage of money in this instance, unless I'm wrong and the beach costed pennies to buy, in which case awesome. But I find that highly unlikely.

Jesus healed the sick and loved the poor. We make ourselves exclusive by booking a beach. Can somebody please explain how this one shot wastage in my opinion goes towards building the kingdom of god. Maybe we should just start giving out money as bulletins, or have gold taps in the YWCA bathroom. Do they not achieve the same thing?

buses

2009-04-27T19:57:00.002+08:00

I may be making a rather controversial stand here with some sweeping statements and assumptions. But anyway, I wish that the two bus companies would revert to providing comfort instead of trying to make more money under false pretenses of helping the disabled. While I understand the intentions and if I were a handicapped person I would definitely appreciate it, the truth of the matter is I have not seen a wheelchair-ed person take a bus. Ever. So instead all the tired working adults and students are forced to stand for their long journeys home because the bus provides about as many seats as I have teeth. Or maybe even less.

Honestly, have you ever seen a person in wheel chair get on a bus in town amongst all the rest of the people who have just finished working like around 7pm? Give me seats damnit.

The Christ is Risen Weekend

2009-04-12T20:47:00.002+08:00

So. This weekend was nice extended one, and I spent Friday with my dad and the animals at the zoo. Saturday night was spent at Maho's place, where we had an ushering gathering!!! (FIRST TIME LOR). Needless to say I felt ancient and stuff, but was still very delighted to see new blood!!! So I shall spend some time talking about this special ministry.

The Wesley YM Ushers was a community that I joined before any other in chuch, and at many a time was the one community where I could be myself, where I made some very close friendships and a community that was indeed bonded in love. I'll never forget the first ushering retreat I had at YMCA where well... you could say it was the starting point for a lot of things to come in my life. By then most of the older ushers were beginning to leave, and probably the oldest in the business remaining that I could still relate to and connect with was Fong. As I mentioned on Saturday, the group of sec 2 girls has grown up already!!! Aiyo no more cute little sec 2s with mango juice (they're j1 now...)

Since then the ministry has changed a fair bit I would say. While I am happy to see all the new people with hearts eager to serve God, I would be lying if I said that the community didn't feel as close and warm as it used to. That will take time to build, and even longer considering the size of our ministry now. I missed out on one ministry retreat in december 07, and last year we only had one retreat at Sarimbun. And for this past 1 and a half years in ushering I have missed Thong's underwear-forgetting antics and just all the stupid stuff that we used to do. Like Veggie eating competitions and stuff. Well expanding on that I miss just hanging out with Thong. JUNE HOLIDAYS COMING!!! not so soon. Ok back to the ministry aside from Thong. Ya, definitely the whole ushering scene has changed.

Change acknowledged, there are some things that I am very happy about and optimistic about. Firstly, you can't ask for a better leader in the ministry than Matthias. He is passionate, self-sacrificing and most importantly he is a friend to me first, before a "boss" as you could see it. When I first was in Ushers I think Matt was more involved in cross trainers and stuff so I didn't really get to know him well. But he would talk to me, commend me on my drumming and stuff (even though I wasn't very good haha) and not to forget all the cards and stuff every christmas. I hope that the whole ushering ministry can learn from our leader's example and try to really take an interest in each other's lives. All the best in tekong maho!

Secondly is well, the new blood. When the atmosphere has changed so much that as an old timer you feel a bit out of place, that is an awesome sign. Oh by the way Victoria Ashley Jong makes nice dips. Sry other ppl I didn't really try your homemade food, just stuffed myself with the other junk. And yesterday I saw eager faces, people who were really interested in being in the ministry, in building this community of love that I talked about. That is really an awesome sight.

So yup that ends the talk about ushering, or whatever came to my mind that my fingers typed out. There's a lot more but I didn't type it out...

Moving on, I have a Gp essay and essay plan I need to do, alongst with a lot of other homework mainly comprising of economics h2 and h3. And I ran out of things to talk about. So good bye!

Christ is risen, he is risen indeed!

Mid week rants

2009-04-08T21:55:00.002+08:00

Got my bio back yesterday and I am pleased to say that God has indeed blessed me and been with me. I got 2 As and 3 Bs for terms which I am very satisfied with.

My dear friend Wei Xian seems to have his life's journey mapped out, or rather things he hopes to accomplish. I am not so farsighted. But one thing I do aim to do as of now is to stop being so spoilt in financial/material terms. Having started "earning" from teaching drums I suddenly feel the pressure of working/adult life. The minute I got "paid" I had to give up the money to pay for overdue bills and such. Hence from now on I will stop thinking in terms of like Chinese new year money or pocket money but really what can I afford if I was earning, if I had to pay all of my own bills. Obviously the amount I get would be insufficient but it's just the mindset to prepare me for the day when mom and dad aren't gonna be paying for my lunch and dinner. So reality strikes, I'm still a kid earning close to nothing, I should not be spending more than some fresh grads and stuff who earn 3k a month. The only thing I'm going to let myself spend on is food. Today I spent $10 on lunch. If that person making 3k a month (which is already quite high right in average person terms) were to spent that amount a week, that would be close to 7% on one meal alone. Dinner is usually more expensive --> say 17% of monthly income spent on food. Then transport maybe another $4 a day. The point is, I am spending way beyond my means.

Congratulations to Sandra and the girls polo team for winning today.

un-band revival

2009-04-05T22:31:00.001+08:00

Refer to blog. We. shall be revived. Like by a phoenix down.

strangely enough

2009-04-01T22:53:00.002+08:00

I think I recently rather accidentally discovered something about myself that explains a large part of my personality. It was during a personal statements workshop. More for looking to make my paragraph interesting rather than for actual truth, I mentioned that I had a natural (as in in-born) drive or cause to be an alpha male. As primative and animalistic as it may seem, I realised that such a strong sense to be this ... "most prominent" male would account for much of my strange behaviour at times.

For example, I never feel competitive or threatened by girls, but easily feel threatened and am easily jealous of other guys. I get this notion to want to be more popular, to stand out more, to do better, to look better ... the list goes on, and only applies to guys. I also get easily possessive.

Naturally I have yet to attain this alpha male level and of course I don't intend to challenge every male out there for dominance. Needless to say now being more aware of my primitive drive I will try to watch my behaviour more, and remind myself that humans are "evolved" creatures.

On a side (and positive in my opinion) note, for terms itself B for GP, A for Chem, B for Math, B for Econs, with Bio (hopefully an A) coming next week.

band(age) 2 video

2009-03-16T22:30:00.001+08:00

bandage

2009-03-15T22:31:00.001+08:00

Bandage was awesome. Awesome job exit 9!!! Thanks to everyone who supported us and yeah it was an amazing experience

band(age)2

2009-03-01T14:27:00.002+08:00

Hey please go for band(age)2. It's on 14 March, doors open 7pm at MGS. Tickets are priced at $15, free seating. 8 bands. Retro theme so songs will all be (should all be) like retro stuff. Pls contact me if you're interested

The week flew by

2009-02-07T21:56:00.002+08:00

This week was orientation week! Welcome all ye happy J1s. Apparently they didn't get my msg (obviously) and my void deck space was stolen on Friday. Nevertheless I must admit I've been wanting to just go up to the LT now since there's a table to do work.

The class was 9 strong with everyone who was anyone (except the 9 of us) was involved as OGLS! Although I did miss my classmates, I have to say class was incredibly fun and stuff this week, really relaxing and refreshing. The teachers were more patient and I think the few of us left in class also kinda bonded a bit. Needless to say I don't regret not being an OGL although I'm sure it would have been a great experience to be involved in orientation.

Before I go on I wanna wish my best bud Thong a happy 18th birthday. You are now old enough to do many many things so pal use your newfound maturity to glorify God :)

It's funny how things can change so much in a matter of days. One minute it's all you think about and the next you don't even care. I wish I didn't have to be indifferent, and I think I'm slowly softening up again. Everytime I build up a defence it comes crashing down with just a few words.

STICKING

2009-01-30T20:04:00.004+08:00

Here's a short vid of me doing random sticking... Like anyhow one la so don't expect too much. In it are double strokes, flams, drags, ratamacues, paradiddles, flam taps mainly. And a lot of anyhow playing haha. enjoy.

struck with a revelation

2009-01-21T21:46:00.002+08:00

Let me paint a picture. A person "committing" his life to teaching the skill that he lacked, leading to unfortunate circumstances. That's an idea that crossed my mind recently.

Everybody makes mistakes, and it's important that we pass on the wisdom we gain from these mistakes. I wonder 30 years down the road what I will be telling my son. What mistake I would have made that I will tell him not to make.

MY NEW PHONE NUMBER

2009-01-18T21:13:00.001+08:00

AGAIN I AM SORRY FOR SPAMMING THIS BUT.
Michael has changed his phone number to 97720148. And hopes never to have to go through the trouble of informing everyone again ahhh

the first week

2009-01-17T21:38:00.002+08:00

Unlike many others I had an enjoyable week at school, catching up with all my classmates and starting to talk to the people I never really talked to much before! I must say SC1 is a place where you can definitely find a "home" with at least a few people.

The new timetable is pretty good, we've got at least 5 20min breaks everyday I think so I feel quite relaxed at the moment. If I do my work diligently over the weekends and all school will be very enjoyable indeed. As for certain matters, things are getting better and as I say I hope for normal.

This year would be so awesome if I had time everyday...

Leading my life

2009-01-12T19:53:00.002+08:00

Recently certain events have gotten me rather well... annoyed. But they have also got me into more reflection, which is always good. Firstly, I would just like to thank people who pray for me for whatever reason, good or bad. But I probably think It's bad because normally you don't pray for someone when things are good. So I'm going to say this once and only this once. I feel there is very little point in praying for someone if you're hoping to change them or something without talking to them directly. It's like me praying that person A will stop smoking and taking drugs without myself taking the effort to tell him and advise him to stop smoking and such.

Secondly, I ask that when you speculate something about me, feel free to check with me, to talk to me about it. But please for goodness sake do not make me a subject of idiotic gossip. Why is this so? Well I am sick and absolutely tired of having to try to please people. I would like to live the way I want to live, in accordance to what I believe is God's will, and in doing so it would be awesome to not have people constantly finding fault with me and finding something that I am doing wrong and stuff. Please, nobody is perfect, and if you feel I am doing something that is not right in your eyes come directly to me and bring it up in a proper manner. I assure you I will happily take constructive criticism, but if you treat me weird for some reason and you don't bring it up all I can say is you deserve to be thrown to a pool of hungry alligators.

Thirdly, would you please let me start afresh. I'd like to believe I am different every year, that as I grow older I learn from my mistakes and do my best to change for the better. It does not help to keep harping on the same old things that I may have done wrong in the past. Learn to see me in a new light and accept me for who I am. Is that so hard?

To summarise all I'm asking for is a bit of respect. Exercise discretion when spreading things about others, respect the privacy of others. All this I feel I have not really been getting from certain people. And as I'm sure many of you know I have two very big pet peeves. Number 1 is having my plans disrupted without sufficient notice. Like last minute I cannot make its or school meetings when I have plans and such. Number 2 is being accused of things without being given a fair chance to defend myself, to give my stand. These are the two things that will get me rather upset. Which brings me onto my next point.

I have always been rather hot tempered and not very good at exercising self-control, to a certain extent due to my stand that everyone should treat others as they would others treat them. I realise now that I cannot expect everyone to live by this. I apologise to my classmates especially for often going somewhat "emo" on you guys and this year I will definitely try to handle my displeasure in a better, more proper way and also be more light hearted.

So once again I thank thee for trying to make my path straight, but I ask that you always bring it up with me and not spread it around.

Of fuzzy love and the Calvin Cycle

2009-01-10T21:12:00.002+08:00

That title was a hard one to think of mind you so please at least read it. Now recently a very shocking, stunning, astonishing and humourous thing occured. If any of you are finding that statement somewhat similar to one of my facebook statuses that's because I'm talking about the same thing.

Seriously, I have no clue what's going on but Mr Wee's relationship is one to remember. Fear not for I will provide the jolly shandy for your engagement party. Well sir I wish you all the best and perhaps with your increased popularity you can like I don't know increase fan base or something. This is the day we will always remember, as the day that Dwee hooked up with Jack Sparrow :D

Moving on, I finally finished my photosynthesis online lecture, and obviously my plans to do a lot of work in the holidays have once again failed. But I shall not let that bother me and I will slowly crawl my way back into actually knowing things again.

Wei's blog is always so full of like deep emotional things, it's rather scary. And then on his tagboard he says that his blog is the place he's supposed to say these things and so I shall follow suit. Ok actually I got nothing to say so I shan't follow Wei but go Wei whatever Wei-rd things you're up to.

So to end this rather boring post I shall talk about things that I can actually talk about! You guessed it, the NBA! THE CELTICS SUCK THE CELTICS SUCK THEY LOST FOR THE 7th TIME IN 9 GAMES LOSER CELTICS LOSER CELTICS TAKE THAT FOR BEATING THE LAKERS WITH YOUR CHEAPO DIRTY DEFENSE HAHA GO LEBRON OWN THEM!!!! Meanwhile, the Lakers beat the Pacers on a game winner by Kobe with like 3s to go and the Kings actually put up a fight against the Miami Heat!

Oh I have a question. When?

THE DAY

2009-01-07T13:47:00.002+08:00

Today I went for training. Yes that's actually enough of a statement to make a post on it's own.
Anyway I survived and I am sort of stepping down from the leadership position, for betterment of team. Quite cool with that haha, in fact I'm quite relieved. Then I went to the polyclinic and I got a nice stash of vitamin B tablets.

Cornelia de Lange

2009-01-06T21:27:00.001+08:00

No relation to Cruella de Ville. But I just read about it, and a lot of the symptoms and characteristics of people who have it fit me... My goodness I may have just found what may be causing all my weird things!!

The Sacramento Kings

2009-01-04T14:34:00.003+08:00

Your star player scores 45 points and gets 6 assists, making 13-24 from the field (including 7-12 from 3) and 12-12 from the line.
Your bench age old veteran guard gets 10 rebounds 15 points and 5 assists.

Sound good? Well. Kings still lose 117-122 to the Pacers.

I love the kings. They give my life tragedy

The Wedding with Perspective

2009-01-03T21:20:00.002+08:00

Today I went for a wedding, and it was really good. The pastor really put marriage into perspective, what wives and husbands really should do. I'm not one who has personally been around very good marriages, and just hearing the vows, hearing what all this cahooty-love thing really is all about really made a mark on me somewhere deep down.

How often do we desire such love, how often do people rush into relationships for this sense of being loved. But I think the real question one should ask is, am I ready to love. Because if you aren't, you shouldn't be rushing into any relationship and expecting to get love back.

I summarise rather loosely what the pastor said. For wives, adapting from scripture where it says Wives submit to your husbands. You have to respect, honor etcetc your husband, and that means putting him before everything else, including career. That means praising him every single day every single hour. I seem to remember the guy's side more. Husbands are commanded to love their wives. This means never having resenting her, always being patient, never saying an angry word to her, to communicate your differences in a proper manner, to still stand by her no matter how annoyed you may be with her, to never lust after another.

While this may be like an after marriage thing, I really feel that people should start taking steps towards reaching that the moment they enter a relationship. It's not just about being together, spending time together - it's about protecting and supporting each other. I met an old teacher of mine at the wedding reception, and in passing he mentioned how being attached in JC is very time consuming and how it often affects your grades, the result usually being break up. If couples would learn to support each other, that would also mean supporting each other through exams, through school life. That means cutting the 20 minutes of "no you hang up first" so you can have 5 minutes to do your tutorial after you spend 15 minutes looking for it. That means not being overly possessive and realising that the other person needs their other friends as well. That means being willing to sacrifice your self interest, and actively looking out for the person you are committed too. That means needing to know the person a lot better, and that means a certain somebody isn't even near to being ready.

Happy New Year

2009-01-01T00:03:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year everyone! May 2009 be an awesome year for all of you. God Bless!

New Year's Adam

2008-12-31T21:24:00.002+08:00

This be the day that I changeth my blog skin. I quite like it.

Anyway, this new year's eve is rather different in that I'm not currently with my small group waiting to attend Watchnight service in church due to me being sick and also because I want to really sit myself down and talk to God into the new year. I really thank him for all he's blessed me with this year, the number of things I am thankful for are great indeed. There's friends and family as usual, and this year has really been about different kinds of relationships. I don't mean that in a BGR sense or anything but rather different levels of friendship. Going back to the point about family, as so inspired by Alon's blogging (which I commanded him to do), I am also very glad to have Oscy-poo (pronounced os-kee-poo)(see also, "Oscar, the dog")

Conrad always talks about goal setting, and damn he has the body to show it whilst I am still floating around. So I shall make public 5 of my top goals for the coming year.

1. Live a life that my Lord and saviour would be proud of
2. Get the grades that I want (i'll look into this term by term)
3. Become a way better drummer
4. Have a "fat" new year, terminology courtesy of Gail
5. Achieve these goals over time

I realised that if there's ever been a year for change, 2009 would be a likely one for it. All I can say is I expect 3 things could change my life tremendously. Love. Marriage. Death. Nevertheless, I am confident in 2 things - that God will always be there for me, and that my bros will always be there for me. That's how much I love you guys, and I would even take up the responsibility of personally ensuring that we don't drift.

I thank all who have been a part of my life in 2008. And I do ask that if you see me not really moving towards my goals to kick me or something and remind me of this post, this night.

Christmas wishlist

2008-12-14T17:36:00.006+08:00

Here's a few titles (Cds) I would like to have.
Album, Artist
1. Chet Baker Sextet - Chet Baker
2. Sounds of New Orleans - Albert Burrank & Kid Ory
~~3. Oscar Peterson Trio + One - Clark Terry & Oscar Peterson Trio~~
4. I'll be Home for Christmas - Brian McKnight (but before christmas haha)

As of 15 Dec one is off the list

im in beijing

2008-11-17T22:14:00.001+08:00

i'll be in beijing till the 30th. take care peeps

Im back

2008-11-01T15:19:00.003+08:00

Alright my deepest most sincere apologies to everyone (including myself who demanded an update in the tagbox) for the unannounced rather long hiatus of my fairly angsty blog. Nevertheless I assure you that I, Michael Alexander Chee, return with new and refound angst and drama, fingers on the keyboard at the ready to pour out the emotional wastings and rantings of my sad depressed teenage life.

Now I'd like to spend this blog post talking about the going ons in my life over the past 1 month and also perhaps talking about the school year which has indeed ended. I will then proceed to talk about some random things that I like to call "issues".

Firstly, a recap of the past month. Well that's rather a lot to recap so I shall just highlight some events. Firstly - the official end of the promotional exams was rather enjoyable I must say, although it did include a rather horribly done Biology Science Practical Assessment and a very very enjoyable Chemistry one. Chem SPA skill C is for people who have lack of sleep, seriously. On the thursday of that week I was then shipped (or bus-ed) to the faraway lands of Lim Chu Kang to this wooden hut that we called home for a few days. Ah CCAAB camp was quite exciting and unlike other camps I felt that the support was really there and we weren't doing things just for the sake of doing things. That said, I in my rebellious frame of mind can of course find many many faults and yet when they ask for feedback I can find none. The part of camp I enjoyed the most was the night games where Mr Mark Ng did a very very funny demonstration of the rules and I was simply blown away by the ideas that they had. Involving every one while keeping the game non-violent. Now that is truly a wonder for my intellectual nerdy chess-inclined (or so it would seem) self. The night games saw yours truly meeting up with several pals and having a lot of fun finding numbers from 1 to 50.

The day after camp was over was CCAAB dinner and I'm sure you will have no problems finding any pictures of that harmonious ceremony. So the school week was quite boring to me, filled with Chinese and project work and then came the day of our promo results!! I was well thankful but a bit disappointed with myself because I felt that I should certainly get better grades than that.

General Paper: D (OH MY GOODNESS)
Chinese: E (E for expected and ...elephant)
Math: A
Chem: A
Economics: B (this made me happy)
Biology: C (I should have studied more)

Overall not too shabby I guess but yes I could have done better. My congratulations to those who got what they wanted be it straight A's or getting promoted and for those who didn't do as well as they'd like don't worry there's next year and if not getting what you like means not getting straight A's screw you :D

Then came the next week of more chinese and project work and I am quite proud to say my group is nicely bonded and our oral presentation is fine from my perspective. A certain day of school in this week was especially enjoyable for me due to certain reasons but with every high must come a low and that perhaps is what I may be experiencing at the moment. My overall results for the year are as followed

General Paper: B (a lot of people got A so I blame promos)
Chinese: E (yay?)
Math: A
Chem: A
Bio: B (grrrr)
Econs: B (I lubx you econsmdm)

I somehow managed to make the top 10% still which was my goal or measuring stick rather so I'm quite satisfied overall. Oh some strange thing possessed me as well to apply for H3 economics (Game theory) at SMU so we'll see how that goes. I was torn between Chemistry and Econs but decided that econs sounded more interesting. As much as chemistry has some wonderful friends. But so does econs.

On friday night (24th oct) Juice matt Lester and I went for this Night-Meh thing that Lester's church organised. It was basically bowling (where my skills have somewhat deproved from p6 heheh) and then supper where we went back to my place and then west coast park for games and then mustafa for shopping but we slept on the bus and lastly east coast park for carl's jr breakfast. I got home at 9am on saturday morning after leaving my place at like 7.25 on friday night. But It was good fun. thank you lester.

Monday was deepavali and I was with daddy. We went for carrot cake for breakfast. To summarise the day I watched Fast Food Nation and Jumper and dota'd. Tuesday was more interesting perhaps. Met Fern RX Chin Ling Pail at Coffee Bean for breakfast before rushing down to school to face the wrath of Laoshi. I shall touch on Chinese later. Met juice to cut hair before coming back to school for PW and then went shopping with Dwee and Lester (shopping with vouchers) and then met up with juice and matt to watch HSM3! The dancing and singing was good but the plot was a little boring to me. Boring and predictable. Not enough conflict kind of thing.

On Wednesday I got sick after training and spent the whole afternoon sleeping. Did have a chat with Sandra in school before Dwee came over. So Thursday was THE DAY. CHINESE A's!!! Now everyone who is anyone should know that I am a complete bust at Chinese, that is to say I have to think before i can say which is zuo and which is you. (left and right) And as Zoe so often points out I have a non-chinese accent and really bad pronunciation and tone.

So how has my Chinese journey come along? Assuming that I pass A's which I do hope and pray I will.

In primary one I was good at chinese as everyone was and almost got full marks and stuff. In primary 2 my grade dropped to a ... B? I've forgotten primary school grades. OH OH I KNOW its the 1 2 3 thing. Yeah it dropped to band 2. In primary 3 my suckiness manifested. I still remember my first mo xie. Obviously I had no idea what it was having either not understood when the teacher mentioned it before or the more likely possibility was I wasn't listening. Anywho, I remember she was like kai shi and my partner started writing and I was like huh wth do what? And I peeked over and he was writing out this passage from the ke ben!! It was the story bout you know you cut the corner of the table or something how many corners does it have and the boy answered 3 when it's 5. I was dumbfounded and like OH MY GOODNESS YOU MEMORISED THIS CRAP??!! But in more innocent terms. Primary 3 also marked my best grade for ting xie ever. 8/100. Or was it 3? Well yeah it looked something like that.
Going on I obviously did not take higher chinese and ended up with a B i think (or C?) for chinese for PSLE. In secondary school I tried very hard from sec 2 onwards to do my daily work because for GEP they count your daily work and all. So my organised nature helped me in getting full marks for chinese file. I ended up with a c5 for O's. This year, I actually got an A for my zuowen once and for the term 3 CA I got an A too! So thank you god for bringing me through this awesome language you created that I call my mother tongue and I hope I never have to write a zuo wen or answer a compre in chinese ever again. After Beijing.

Ok moving on to the school year. I have very muched enjoyed this year in ACJC, from orientation all the way to Chinese A's. I love my friends very very much and school would have sucked without a certain few people who played key roles in my life. It's like a book. The Story of MAC(no beth). I dub Lester Matthaeus and Justin the 3 witches. Can't wait to see how everyone has changed and stuff next year (I'm sure there will be changes) and yes I will miss you guys muchxmuuchz in holidays so hopefully we can still meet up sometime. Beijing people I'm sure we'll bond even more. Like from van der waal's to metallic or something.

Yep so all that said I'm gonna screw my insulting random things around the world and end this blog post here. Enjoy.

Meet oscar

2008-09-22T20:47:00.003+08:00

This is Oscar. He's a really nice dog :) Welcome to the family oscar

the day michael turned 17

2008-09-15T19:41:00.002+08:00

Unlike the previous two years, this one snuck up on me. There was no list of things I want, no woohooo I'm older now!! And yet, this year was one that was like no other.

This was one year where my friends showed how much they care, and it was also the first year with new friends. I love you all very much!!!
So ... I dedicate this post to all my lubbydubby pals who made today just that special.

In no order of importance,

SCONE (especially Sandra, Lydia, Alon, Gail, Manda Ang, Choobs + Choobs, Joelle, Liz, Zoe, Michelle, Yiling, Chin, Grace, Jane) sorry if there's anyone I forgot.

IDEN!!! Justin, Stacey, Char, Eugene, Richard, Elliot, Heidy!

And those belonging to no particular group Gabriel, Conrad, Caleb, Andrew, Matthaeus, Nicole, Steph, Steph, Jong, Desmond!

Then there's my best buds Lester (the mastermind of crime) and Thong

My family

And GOD!!! whom without with non of this would be possible, to god be the glory the best is yet to be. well no but yes thank you lord.

So yup thanks to everyone who wished me, I really really appreciate it even if it was just a brief wish from a distant friend! I have a feeling that this list is gonna be expanded like ... tomorrow or something.

Michael has joined the group "We're 17 and we're old foggies"

fakeinjury

2008-09-11T20:36:00.002+08:00

that's it I have discovered a new level of retardedness I never thought could exist on Earth. FakeInjury is either mentally unstable or lives in a fantasy world where Michael Jordan is the 12th man off the bull's bench in 1998

ITS OVER

2008-08-28T19:57:00.001+08:00

AND NO MORE SCHOOL!! TOMORROW DOESN'T COUNT!!

Yay.

sweettalk

2008-08-10T17:38:00.001+08:00

presenting the latest advert. Sweet talk makes you go mmmmmmm

spiderman!

2008-08-09T22:46:00.001+08:00

heheheh

Your results:
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Superman		55%
Hulk		50%
Supergirl		40%
Batman		30%
Wonder Woman		30%
The Flash		15%
Green Lantern		10%
Catwoman		0%
Iron Man		0%

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a bit geeky and have great
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my eyes

2008-08-07T21:11:00.001+08:00

i've opened my eyes. my classmates take wonderful care of me :D

estatic

2008-08-05T21:05:00.003+08:00

I. FEEL. WONDERFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

a revelation

2008-07-28T20:03:00.004+08:00

I want to continue doing anything I can to make my friends happy =)
Today a friend said something to me that made me realise how blessed I am, and how I can be a blessing to others. It never occured to me that as we age and mature such things would become a factor; we never discussed such issues when we were younger. But I suppose we all need some sort of guiding force in life, and as much as God can provide that I feel that we sometimes need an actual person to lead us. There are things that just can't be learned on your own in life and you need somebody to pass on that knowledge to you.

I made it to beijing immersion and very much looking forward to it.

At this point I want all my friends to know that I love you all much much and life wouldn't be the same without you guys.

dang ______'s cute.

i dont know whats the ish.

2008-07-14T17:33:00.003+08:00

Congratulations to all my newly invested? councillors. Pay no heed to my nonsense bout elitism and all that crap, I'm just messing with you all. It's nice to have you guys as friends.

Well school has continued to be quite pleasant. I actually got laughs and sleep in chinese today! But there are some things that I'm not very happy about. I don't see why _ should judge what I do, it's none of your business. I'm finding _ increasingly annoying, and it seems as if no matter what I do I'll never be good enough, never meet _ bar of expectation. It's as if I have to limit myself to __ but at the same time not be too close to anybody. So what basically I have to be _ _____?

The blanks don't spell anything, as in it's just a blank, not like a however many letter blank.

On the other hand, thanks to those who are on the flip side of this and actually making my life enjoyable instead of the negative **** I get all the time.

the 3rd of july

2008-07-03T21:52:00.003+08:00

I'm pooped. School's been really great this term, I mean exams aside and stuff I think I feel more comfortable in class than I ever have this year.

Gotten back a few papers, so far it's B for CME (civics and moral education heheheh) and a bare E for chinese. Well I guess I'm quite content, of course theres always room for improvement. And I'm rather motivated to work harder now.

Tomorrow's chinese A level oral. I've spent quite a number of hours with laoshi practising so I do hope I pass. It would suck to have to retake Chinese next year. After which I shall go for Passion AC.

On Monday un-band had a jam. Well we played a few switchfoot songs before eventually making our own version of "afterglow" by finding michelle. After listening to the recording several times Gab and I have concluded that we don't like the tones and sounds, it sounds to Midi like. And there are of course quite a number of mistakes here and there, but overall we think we have musical potential. Thats good I guess.

I'm probably thinking too much into it, as usual. But I just wanna say that its really nice being at the receiving, positive end for once. And that has really made these days a lot more enjoyable. Thanks a lot.

I WAS RIGHT

2008-06-27T13:52:00.000+08:00

I WAS RIGHT! YES YES YES YES. I refer to my post dated Sept 23 2007, regarding the term "manfriend". It's used in "sex in the city". woohoo

my wishes

2008-06-22T22:23:00.002+08:00

It is with this post that I now wish everyone all the best for the coming term examinations and bid farewell to another enjoyable month of holidays :)

General Paper and Chinese tomorrow. I'm not as prepared as I should be, but hoping that GP will take care of itself which will leave me time for Chinese. I'm not one to stay up mugging.

Here's hoping the buses all come at the right times tomorrow to get me to school appropriately and sufficiently early.

the hols begin to end?

2008-06-19T18:31:00.002+08:00

And as usual I find myself sitting at the computer and the television, ignoring the fact that I should be studying. I'm quite confident about chemistry and maths, it's biology that I'm worried about. I am somehow incompetent without sufficient practice.

Anyway, congratulations to the Boston Celtics who I guessed were going to to win (or did I?). They really deserved it, and congratulations to the Lakers for making it that far with such a young cast and a slow start to the season. Here's to an awesome 08-09 season!

I've taken a new fascination to CSI, specifically CSI:NY. Singapore really needs to start making some good shows of its own. I'm also looking forward to tomorrow, seeing as I get to see all my wonderful lovely friends again after oh so long.

Indeed, the holidays have been rather eventful and interesting. I found myself spending time with different people, and taking interest at ... certain things. I shall now proceed to waste my time away instead of studying like I should be. On a side note I don't see the logic in school expecting me to understand Chinese through independent learning when I don't even understand it with the teacher teaching.

un-band needs a do-over.

game 4

2008-06-13T23:24:00.000+08:00

Today I was freaking pissed. 24 point lead. 6 point loss.

back from the doctor's

2008-06-12T11:03:00.002+08:00

I just got back from the doctors. Anyway found out I've got thalassemia minor so to any hopeful stalkers out there (more like I'm being hopeful) if you've got it too I'm sorry - we were never meant to be! haha. Yeah the good news is that my haemoglobin and iron levels are normal so I shouldn't have any minor anemia or anything, contrary to what my body suggests. As for the xray, apparently my spine is perfectly fine as well so... yes friends encourage me to sit and stand straight haha.

This paragraph shall be dedicated to making Gail squirm in suspense. Thank you gail for making me very happy last night. muahaha. thou shall never know.

go go go go lakers.
Recent updates on the donaghy scandal which suggest that the Kings should actually have won in 02!!! But it is the dreaded off season and I'm bored.

the day i look forward to.

2008-06-06T18:53:00.002+08:00

Well rather disappointed but expected - Celtics take game 1. Kobe didn't play well.

Congratulations to the choir people on their successful trip. I'm sure you all had a great time and we missed you!! Good to have you all back, sorry couldn't go see you all when you got back. Think Yishen left today for GYLC, take care pon star have a nice trip. And council camp ends today!!! Yay go lester ianyang and yiling.

Basketball is facing a crisis of not having enough people. Which sucks. Even when everyone comes down we're like maybe 10 strong max and that's a really rare occasion. Last two trainings have just been Desmond and I because Marconi's in indonesia. I don't want it to become recre for a number of reasons.

Post pre u sem

2008-05-31T23:47:00.002+08:00

Well apparently I'm supposed to make birthday dedications so happy birthday nicole (30th may) and happy birthday natalie (31st may).

Well pre u sem was a rather interesting experience. I was very blessed to have been in a group of very nice people. I'll make a more detailed post on this later.

Yesterday night I went for restless with Ianyang my new-found buddy and matthaeus. Restless was really good and enjoyable, good job alon, lydia, michelle and yishen (in alphabetical order). Went for supper at burger king after that.

this coming week

2008-05-25T21:04:00.002+08:00

Well the holidays are here! The last week has been really enjoyable, starting with one of the many-to-come outings with some of my classmates for the AC Chinese Orchestra concert "enCOre". Monday was a public holiday, and the next outing we had was on Thursday. After school we headed to frolick. Congratulations to a certain somebody for getting that certain position :). Yiling Chin and I went to Shangri-La for a talk by the president of Rwanda, hosted by the Lee Kuan Yew school of public policy. We had dinner at MOS because we weren't allowed to have the free buffet. That was a nice evening.

On friday I had lunch with lester, gail, ruixian and chin at yoshinoya. Ian yang and Joelle came later and 5 of us watched indiana jones. Then I had band prac. Another nice outing :)

Balled with Thong and Conrad just now. Which brings me to the coming week. I'll be at pre u sem from monday to friday, should still be contactable by phone. I originally wanted to be an official blogger for the seminar but they scrapped the idea so no pro blogging for me. Going for restless on friday night.

A good sound system is very, very crucial. Not to mention good equalizing.

Meet My New Arsenal

2008-05-10T21:33:00.002+08:00

And at last I'm rather happy with my cymbals! I've now got A custom projection hi hats, a K custom Medium Ride and a avedis fast crash. The blend is not too bad, the ride's kinda very good for some songs but not very good for others, because it's slightly dry and doesn't ring out much, but it's very defined.

I'm really excited for worship tomorrow.

The week has been rather eventful, I'm starting to really gel with the team and all. Tests that came back were pretty good, and all in all it was a very enjoyable week of school, other than thursday where I was dead.

Congratulations to all my pals who got into council, namely Lester Yiling Gail Angang Joelle Yishen and Ian. Hope you all do a good job running the school :)

looking back at yesterday

2008-05-03T21:30:00.003+08:00

Well as excited as I was about friday, things didn't go exactly as planned. We didn't do our 5 stations, I didn't finish the essay before 1020. But I did see Caleb's hats and I borrowed them for the day to try them out with my kit and err well it's really bright and rather loud, but I do like the sound of them...just not so much with my kit. So I think I'm buying them tomorrow!

The media talk was surprising. We were all briefed about how the speaker was most probably going to be rather controversial, but in the end his stand was quite the opposite and he was all for traditional media and it's credibility etc. I enjoyed the talk a lot.

Had a good dinner with Lester and Gail. I'm really happy and thankful for all the friendships that God has blessed me with. I don't know why I keep letting him down...it's like there are some problems I just can't rid myself of.

oh wow i cant wait. no sir - ee

2008-05-01T20:35:00.002+08:00

Hello hello yesterday was a rather fun day, helped out with current affairs quiz then we had track and field meet. Oh I am ever so looking forward to tomorrow! Yes in a few ways. For one I'm gonna see if I like caleb's projection hats and if I do I just may buy them. Secondly it's gonna show whether between now and 1020 I can finish a decent gp essay. Thirdly there's a rather interesting GP talk tomorrow, one that I'm willingly and "excitedly" going for. Daniel Tan rocks man. Mister Daniel Tan. It was nice talking to him properly, the last time being in sec1 when he was my oh so favorite teacher.

And yet another reason! tmr's gonna be my five stations for napfa so I hope i can pull off another gold. Yesterday I was supposed to hit 20 pullups, err I don't know whether I did or not because today after doing about 32 spread out over a period of time I managed to do 19.75 pullups.

It's also last day of campaigning, vote lester vote gail vote yiling vote ianyang vote yishen vote joelle vote amanda ang!!! yay.

hello again

2008-04-28T19:58:00.002+08:00

Hi! sorry for not blogging in super long. Anyway today ah that Annie totally embarrassed me in front of the whole class because I didn't know when Farquhar did something or other. I'm so gonna tell the world her little secret. Annie loves boon!!!!!! AHHH please annie don't kill yourself ok we still love you much muchxxz.

I shall start recapping from last friday, where in order to not write a letter for PE (due to me being sick and not wanting to see a doctor) I signed up to participate in some youth radio talkshow thing hosted by Mr Daniel Martin of 93.8 Fm. It was quite interesting to see how radio personalities act, I mean since you only ever hear their voices. We discussed whether technology has resulted in a lack of appreciation for the arts amongst youth, and the general consensus was that technology has given a new meaning to the arts, broadening its definition and also providing new means for us to express ourselves in the arts hint youtube.

This brings me to Sunday's events. After church I met Andrew and then waited for the rest of 4.8 to come. Lester's church booked a whole theater at GV so about 14 of us from 4.8 met up to watch The Forbidden King. Honestly I can't comment on the show, you have to see it to believe it. It was nice catching up a little with other classmates that I hadn't seen in a while. While at PS, we went to times where I noticed the book "youtube for dummies". Out of curiosity I glanced through it and found it rather amusing. It had stuff about "offensive content", warning the reader of the danger of idiotic youtube users posting harsh and negative comments. I do hope the reader knows what he's getting himself into. Yeah it also mentioned like how to report videos and stuff. I've told some of you that at a certain point in time I was feeling rather worried about the rapid advancement of technology, Windows Vista to be precise, as embarrassing as it may sound. But that packaged with the release of all the new consoles like the PS3 really got me rather flustered. I felt that I couldn't keep up with all this technology, that once you mastered something, something new came out. And that sucked. But I'm over it and so bring it on VISTA! Anyway rants about my insecurity of the past aside, let me now rant about my insecurity of the future.

The youtube book. What if say 60 years from now we find ourselves going to the nearest borders or times (by then like mrts will fly and stuff) and looking for a dummies guide to say ... pacman v5000. I can imagine bringing it home and like having my grand kids laugh their pants off at me, and there I'll be with my already poor and deteriorating eyesight and my huge magnifying glass, no doubt stolen from the bio lab(no.), turning to the table of contents. Page 5, "difference between this version and all 4999 versions before it". "Hi, if you bought this book it probably means you aspire to be a great pacman player but are struggling with it. The first step to becoming that great player is to realise the difference of pacman today and the pacman of yesteryear. The largest difference is that pacman is now rainbow coloured, and the developers have even added a rather ancient feel to the game, using music from the likes of Muse."
I mean seriously, is all this change necessary? Unfortunately, it is. I just hope I'm not left out as a pacman dinosaur.

Today some of us had to run our 2.4 for napfa. I had my lowest improvement rate, improving by a mere 25 seconds for a timing of 10.23. nevertheless I was really happy because it was my first A for any "long distance" run ever, but I'm rather worried for my standing broad jump and sit and reach.

how much wood

2008-04-11T23:39:00.002+08:00

how much wood would a woodchuck chuck if a woodchuck could chuck wood... So in the maelstrom of events I seem to have gotten myself involved in several I-would-normally-not-get-involved activities. And the scheme of things have been looking brighter.

Mommy and my sister are away having fun in the land of the Chins, which leaves me home alone! But don't come rob my house ok I leave my light on so burglars think still got people at home. GO NEIGHBOURHOOD WATCH! Yeah cos I can set traps and stuff and make a burglar alarm out of a lousy ride cymbal and string!

School today. We had swim PE and of course I went to intermediate which is a step better than my 4 years in secondary school, even if we did voluntarily and "illegally" go for beginners. I like my new trunks :D but I lost my gym gloves oh noes! right. So yes swim swim swim, my legs hurt ouch. I feel like watching a movie, but I feel like saving money. I feel like eating tons and tons of food!!! Oh cravings.

I now refer to a certain blog post that talks about chemicals in your body exercising, such as mucus running. The immediate response I had to the statement was ... "NO WAY" with a rather big smile on my face that kinda meant harhar thats quite funny. My thoughts drifted to certain individuals and the possibility of them being the subject of discussion! Boy were those entertaining thoughts.

Today, on the 11th of April, 1sc1v2.0 of 2008 celebrated its 1monthanniversary! But on a more significant note, today, on the 11th of April, Elisabeth Ong Su Li called me fat.

It was that wednesday

2008-04-09T21:15:00.002+08:00

Well apparently today was international friendship day! Good job Alon and Yishen!

It's happened many many times, and I think whats really important is just to trust God. I'm insecure. Honestly I am, whether times are good or bad. So all I can do is trust God and believe that stuff is gonna work out. Insecurity makes security feel even better, maybe such that you don't take it for granted.

still

2008-04-05T20:11:00.001+08:00

Despite everything, at the end of the day its perfect, and in the morning I'm delighted.

hmm?

2008-04-05T08:04:00.002+08:00

In an attempt to not let my blog stagnate like certain others, I shall make a post. Last week was fun-o-rama and I had a very good time staying back with my classmates till 11 on thurs and friday, singing random songs and messing around. The day itself was ok, got a chance to meet Limzy and Cleon and Thong, but I didn't have much time to go around and enjoy the carnival. Nevertheless it was an unforgettable experience. Sorry people but I don't make a good scary dude guy, my role was originally freaking lame. Monday was a half holiday kind of thing and a few of us did stuff.

I really really like my class. Or the people I hang around with, without them I'd just die in school everyday. Recent events have made me ecstatic, and then sometimes really down within a few minutes. But if it did turn out that way...

blabla

2008-03-21T22:31:00.002+08:00

thank you sarah goh! and jesus for dying for me on the cross!! Today was good friday, and after church I went to east coast park for a picnic lunch thing. Then I met friends at cold rock for ice cream, where 4 of us shared a rather big ice cream which left my insides cold. Then we went to plaza intending to watch horton but it was sold out so we ended up watching vantage point at cathay. I had a good time :)

special day

2008-03-18T21:22:00.002+08:00

everyday the feeling grows stronger. And I'm in a state of unrest. But I'm sure it'll go away soon and I'll enjoy school once more, especially with me knowing "the aims of education". Ten April is really special i can't wait. OH Happy birthday Conrad and Steph!

wow. just wow.

2008-03-17T06:30:00.002+08:00

I hope one day.

how how how

2008-03-13T22:04:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I find that certain individuals carry themselves with a certain air of arrogance that I do indeed dislike. It's not just a matter of pride about accomplishment, that simply affects your overall personality, not the way in which you treat others. Does experience give you the right to place yourself above others, respecting mainly others with equal experience and treating younger ones with less respect? I don't want to be judgmental, but honestly it's not the first time I feel this way.

In the previous cases, yes intentions were good, but others have been in similar circumstances and they did not act in such a way. In this case, it is our fault, and I apologize for my inability to comply with your standards, but even then must you carry that tone with us? I don't think much of it was intentional, a lot of us have busy schedules and replying about other matters isn't exactly the biggest priority in our lives.

What this group of people need to realize is that they are "elders". If such experience demands a certain amount of respect, then they must be prepared to live accordingly. Younger ones are looking at them for guidance, and if we all follow this example I don't think the atmosphere is going to be one of love at all. Perhaps it's become innate as a result of the corporate world or the military or something, but None of us are getting paid, we are not a regimental system, we're all there to serve God. And if that's the case, then I don't think that such behavior is very appropriate. Agreed, some form of discipline and commitment is necessary. But discipline does not equate to sadistic bursts and condescending, demeaning tones.

Forgive me if I'm over reacting. No harm has been done of course, and this is just me not being very happy about certain things. I personally look to seniors as role models, and there is a reason for me liking some more than others. That is because of the effort they put in to knowing you better, to guide and mentor you, and most importantly, because they hold themselves accountable for their actions. None of us are perfect, but shouldn't leaders try to be more "perfect" than others?

relax.

2008-03-03T21:30:00.002+08:00

I wonder what's up with my timing when I'm playing. When i jam it's fine. I think...or at least it feels fine. This sucks

scone byebye

2008-03-02T21:37:00.002+08:00

hi michael, this is yourself reminding you bout your first class in ACJC, 1sc1v1.0, bout the great times and good friends that you made and about how much you're going to miss them. You will now list all 29 of em.

Anne, Alon, Brendan, Choojiayi, Michelle, Michael, Yoshi, Yiling, Laura, Alex, Wayne, Julian, Faisal, LiLin, Kathleen, Sarah, Yishen, Gongtuo, Yonglit, Gail, Huiyu, Peiyan, Edwin, Veronica, Stephen, Amanda, Ruixian, Ianyang

I've really enjoyed my time with you guys, especially the few of you who I was closer with. But we shall still see each other in school! cept laura and sealion wayne. Anyway all the best and we should have another gathering soon.

I was sick this week on wednesday and thursday. Lecture only week. Went for my first and last canoeing training on tuesday with lester. Well on friday we went to the zoo, and I had a good time. I've really come to love some of these fuddyduddy classmates of mine.
And. can it be?

the O in O2

2008-02-24T16:08:00.002+08:00

So O2 came and went pretty fast, a nice big hello and welcome to Iden V2. On the first day I was pretty tired so thanks to everybody (especially classmates) who tried their very best to cheer me up:). Second day was 1sc1 fundraising stuff, so thank you to people who supported our rather ambitious cause. We had campfire at the basketball courts before it started to rain and we ended up in the hall again, much to my delight. Didn't stay for much of the mass dance stuff though and I went outside to help sell drinks and all. Though I'm not exactly much help. And I shall now publicly thank a few people that I personally know have put in a lot of effort. Veronica for helping out with the hot dogs and also staying at the stall all day selling stuff. Julian for pangsehing your OG to sell stuff with veronica. Yiling for baking and sponsoring and everything la you crazy person where would we be without you. Kat for being hilarious and katkat. Yes I shall now call you katkat. And choo for being carwash ic!!! Oh and not to forget Alex who came back to help us sell stuff!!! And alon for being cute and buying me drinks and stuff. and being cute.

Right so I didn't go for the carwash today sadly. Yesterday was fusion!!! Which was my first fusion and I had a good time, although ACSI is rather boring when all the classrooms are locked. Lukas you owe me 1.50

so the orientation begins...again

2008-02-20T22:17:00.002+08:00

Ladeedadeeda I got posted to ACJC woopdeedoos. Sad that Limzy and all got posted elsewhere but well it'll only be confirmed once their appeals are...settled? To those who didn't get where they wanted, fear not for this is only a 2/3 year stage of your life and all this is just for a piece of paper that may not affect your working life at all. So more importantly make sure you do your best, wherever you are, and let your future take shape from there.

Thanks to everybody who sent their condolences and all, I really appreciate it :).

Tomorrow is the start of O2, which I shall term Oxygen! Or not. Obviously other than the whole missing lessons thing and having fun I'm not that enthusiastic bout o2 ... I guess I've just forgotten how fun it was. I'll miss my class, especially a certain few who I've really come to know better and bonded with. BUT we shall meet again soon, just don't forget who Michael Alexander Dexter Chee Ying Han is. He's : The pervy chopstick, the pervy freak, the guy who's hungry, who brings food to school, who everybody hates, who is a filial son and will be a millionaire in the future, and the list goes on! So it's back to Iden, the place where I once sought much comfort and acceptance. Rather regrettably, ok forgive me I just took like five minutes to spell regrettably, I'm not that close to Iden anymore and yeah partially because I'm rather busy and when I'm not I just happen not to bother paying attention to the mass convo's as they're rather dominated by the same old lines of crap and self praise ahem. We should start playing pictionary again or something.

missing him.

2008-02-16T08:09:00.000+08:00

you were the best dog I could ever have. I'll miss you loads.

discontent

2008-02-11T18:02:00.000+08:00

I'm having fun at school. But at the end of the day I have some strange dissatisfaction. It's like I think I can be living my life much better than I have been recently. It may be simply my distance from God. It's also a fear; a fear that I'm not being accepted, and that's leading me to do things that I normally wouldn't do. I also fear that if I am being accepted it's not for the right reasons, or that people don't know the real me...

What if jokes got out of hand, what if some people were offended but they don't tell me. I want to love everyone but I don't think I've been really trying hard.

A huge problem of mine is pride. There's always a part of me that wants to be the best in everything. In some ways sometimes I don't accept myself for who I am. And I want that to change ... but how. I need to get back to God.

In less abstract terms this is for scone in case something goes out of hand. I take full responsibility for my jokes and nonsense and I will make an effort to make sure it doesn't go further than that. Sorry in advance for any trouble my actions may cause. Also, if you have something up with me ... be it good or bad please just tell me.

the day before chinese new year

2008-02-06T19:09:00.000+08:00

Hello. Life has been pretty great lately, a little tiring but good nonetheless. School's really fun when you've got nice people to talk to. The whole insult michael thing could be cut down a bit but yeah it's alright I suppose. So my first cny celebration in ACJC... It was pretty good.

Hmm blogging's become quite a bore for me. I can't even be bothered to like recap stuff that happened because there's so much. And there's nothing funny or amusing to talk about. Oh. I have an idea. I'm gonna freak people out. Ok I won't. I need to start listening to a lot more music...maybe start a music blog wow oh wow oh wow. But I need a band first.

my reflections.

2008-01-28T20:20:00.000+08:00

Well today was quite a nice day in school, and I've met very very very nice people in class. Well I suppose I should start with last thursday since it was "THE DAY" to many, and just like ... well ok of course I was excited but I was kinda whatever mode. Anyhow I got 7 and I'm really quite happy, thank you God. The only problem is that it's not 6, but I think I'm rather satisfied with my 7. Gotta work real hard now. Our little party of local reunion and jeremy cheong headed down to cine where we got tickets for 27 dresses at 725 pm. We spent almost 3 hours doing something (which I shall not mention for fear of getting into trouble) and then had a good show and then we went home. ee

Friday was OG outing but since Justin and I had already watched 27 we watched cloverfield, which was quite good but a bit short and fairly pointless. We then sat at kopitiam doing something, then met the OG and went to LJS for lunch kind of thing. Then arcade, then pool, then MUTS, then supper at clementimacs where our OG had shrunk considerably and jia yi happily filled the void. Right.

Anyway, saturday and sunday were quite uneventful. I'm starting to like my class. DONT GO IB!!!!!! says michael.

I've been...

2008-01-19T16:04:00.000+08:00

I've been rather tired since Thursday. After a fair amount of planning and stuff the movie at night was called off. Thank goodness though or I would have been dead tired yesterday. Anyway started off the morning with 1scone for assembly and we then proceeded to the concourse to play games and stuff... So at least I know everybody's names now. I think. Then we went after lectures I met up with Iden (I'm gonna miss you guys) and we played taboo and all. Went with scone for econs lecture and then met up with Iden(I'm gonna miss you guys) for the rest of the day. Went to plaza with Limzy and hung around till my drum lesson, and then rushed back to school for like half an hour of ice breakers or something (Waste time) but at least Limzy got into 'G' so congrats limzy. I then went to my dad's place and we had dinner at Jumbo Seafood where I regrettably was falling asleep. Came home to see the Kings suck against Toronto and went to bed.

Friday - I forgot to bring a load of stuff to school. Percentage-wise at least. Sat with Iden the whole day ... may have been the last time we're all together at lectures!!! :( then contact time with scone where we discussed fundraising and appointed (or rather had who can raise their hand first) class comm. Went gym with Lester and Limzy, got pangseh'd, got home, had lunch, went simlim, got my earphones, ran to church, had bandprac, went for supper, went home.

Today- Had to wake up at 745 for math tuition at 8+ and watched the kings beat detroit!! woohoo. And then I had a not very nice long nap from 1-3+ because I woke up just feeling bleh like you normally do when you sleep over 20 minutes.

Iden I will miss all of you, ok maybe not all ahem but most of you. Hope we can all still remain close and stuff with the really limited time we have ... haha not funny ... haha not funny. :(

2008-01-16T17:58:00.000+08:00

Seriously what is up with this advert? It's a freaking joke. I'll try to paraphrase it.
"I'm like you, I breathe, move and sweat"
"I like black because it's confident and looks good"
"Looking good means no dandruff and it takes not having dandruff to be confident, Clear means no dandruff"
"My name is rain"

Like...I have no idea who wrote the advert man but boy I wouldn't vouch for it. Anyway today we got our classes, I'm gonna miss IDEN and we better still meet up and talk and all. I'm in 1SCONE which I think will be a great class...just hope I can stay there.

Guitar "auditions" were like ... rather easy since I got a perfect score haha. But I feel not very committed to it. I have however, seem to put away basketball since I don't think I'll take away much from it and it'll just be waste of my 2 years. I don't mind joining canoeing too since it'll make me all buff and stuff. Which some people think is impossible but you won't know till you try.

I bet Limzy's interviewers are going like this.
"So how'd you find him?"
"I don't know he seems kinda noob, plus he broke my string"
"Was it the g-string?"
"He also knocked down that music stand"
"I think he's kinda cute"
"Well should we give him a second chance?"
"He does seem to have potential...and he is clumsy. If anything he'll be a good clown for the guitar ensemble"
"Yeah we've never had a clown before..."
"So he's in?"
"He's got my vote..."